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Sunday, July 4, 2010

omg so super tired.
& days are so packed with driving, tuition & love <33333
MY SCHEDULE FOR THIS WK!
today i'll have FT Prac 6.15-7, dinner with og @ 6.30! must chop chop
tmr 8-945 practices again aftr work!
And 7 july wed i have facial @ 5 and evaluation at 9pm! Must pass pass pass!!
GAHH :/
tuition on fri & thurs. sighs.
& thurs to keep for love too!
next wk fully booked too!

ok, i just wasted your time reading this (:
hahahahahaha

throughTHICKandTHIN
7:41 PM

Thursday, June 10, 2010

I teared when you walkaway. Somehow I felt lost…. And I kept looking back at you, BUT u didn’t even once look back at me. Couldn’t control it anymore and just burst out on the way home.
What dyou think? Are this feelings for you real? (I have to say yes)
I was so tempted to follow you home…. Even if u didn’t know. And if u read this, I hope u know that I do not wish to hurt you and there were many instances whereby ive hurt you deeply.

~~I’m sorry. There will not be anymore chances for me to hurt you.~~

You deserve someone better
Best friends forever…
i'd like to be yours but i will only hurt u. ive always did. and now im hating myself for it.
i'll not forgive myself for the pain that ive caused you.

:'(

throughTHICKandTHIN
4:22 AM

Thursday, June 3, 2010

love is not a game, when you lose, you can't press restart.

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
Cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe
That that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time from my mistakes
It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're taking him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working cause you know

That that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong I can't go on
'Till you believe
That should be me

I need to know should I fight for love
Or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain is my heart

Ooh Ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
'Till you believe
That that should be me

Holding your hand
That should be me
The one making you laugh (oh baby oh)
That should be me

That should be me
Giving you flowers
That should be me
Talking for hours
That should be me (that should be me)
That should be me

That should be me
Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
I never shoulda let you go
That should be me

That should be me by Justin Bieber.

This song is really amazingg. Its like a song meant for MR (if it was yrs back ago) but of cos i'm totally over MR. we're just close friends. wrong, we are just friends now but we know we can still depend on another.
but now this song, kinda put me in his shoes for reasons that i think pple know.

i have to think about my happiness right? even if it means that i have to be selfish about it? its not wrong i presume. but sometimes i wonder if this rush i get is worth the pain. And my answer is "you never know until you try." i have to admit MNM qualities are really what i'm looking for. so my decision has been made up and i pray that it is a good choice. but i'm really weak in breaking pples heart :( i have to admit i am still slightly bothered u know. i dont know if its because i dont want my bday week to be ruined or because it has been a long time or because i still like him. BUT we both know tht its been awkward between us, like the love we felt between both of us is gone, we both dont give a shit anymore. i mean we have to put in effort to make it work but the two of us doesnt want to do so. we're just plain lazy. i'm just sick and tired of having to argue every single day, having to make it up every single time. meet or no meet each other will still argue. thats NOT SUPPOSED to be the way right? absence makes the heart grows fonder but absence too makes the heart drift apart from one another. dont you agree?

i know you will move on even if you say its ok i should be with a nice guy cos i deserve someone like him and that you will wait. you will move on. just like wad happens before. it took u abt 8 months to do so.. but anthr thing that is holding me back is because of ur medical problem. u need someone to be there and care for u but i dont think i will be able to do that anymore even if we became just friends. that will just hurt one another. both u and mnm.
right now he stole my heart and i know it hurts u of cos but yeah, watched a bit of zack and cody yest morning and there was ONE PART
when mr moosbee(spell) says: "HOW CAN YOU LOSE A GIRL??"
Cody: "WHEN YOU DONT CHERISH HER."

this gets me thinking.. i know u understand. ive told u time and again but the changes will just be a temp measure cos then u'll be back to ur old self. yes i admit im nt able to accept the fact that u're just like that and thats cos i dont like that part of u. it hurts dyou know that? i know when we're happy, we're really both so crazy so madly in love so out of the world bt we argue more dont u think so? we can be like fighting 2, 3 times in a day.. EVEN if i hadnt met u in a long time. this is just wrong dont u think so? its just PLAIN wrong for us to be like that. maybe we're not meant for one another. maybe its just best that we move on.

so many pple have been giving me advices but the ultimate choice is mine. they wont know what is really going on because the one going through it is me.
im very sensitive and emotional plus im having menses now so it gets even worst like TTM. tsk. but i know that whatever I do, it will be for my own good..

then again, NICE GUYS FINISH LAST.

I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go

Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go

Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear

We both know
It's better if we just let it go

throughTHICKandTHIN
6:02 PM

Saturday, March 20, 2010

im gonna miss you like crazyyyyyyyyyyy

i dont want you to go :( if thats possible but oh wells, its not.
sighs

I LOVE YOU <3

throughTHICKandTHIN
8:10 AM

Monday, March 1, 2010

wow, how fast time flies and its already the 3rd month of 2010!
Which means, its closer to the release of the A lvls result.. :( me no like...

supposed to watch dear john with bf today but postponed to wed cos i am sick and he is gonna play lan.. tsk

i am down with diorrhoea, cramps and of cos normal sore throat thingyy. sighs.
it was freaking bad in the morning! Went to the ladies for like 29382946376293492 times mann.
AND AND AND safarina is sick too haha. GFs foreverrr thats whyy(: in happiness/ sick, we will always be tgt.. woohoo

ps i love you <3

i know suwfiya misses me at work cos she was like " babe u're not in schll?"
:D TEEHEE. i know haslina and aishah feels the same way too woots!

throughTHICKandTHIN
12:49 AM

Sunday, February 28, 2010

decided to revive my old blog(:

right now i have no idea wadsup with you... sometimes u just irritate me!! fine, i'm stubborn wad else dyou need to say when u just brought tht matter up all of a sudden?

i was looking through my quizzes and i realised that according to the quiz, i will fall for a gentleman.. heh.

"You like a man who knows how to treat a lady. Your guy will be suave, sophisticated, and dashingly handsome. He remembers the little things that matter: holding doors open, offering his jacket to you when you're cold, and giving you flowers when you're down. Your Mr. Perfect will respect you, love you, and make you feel beautiful, because you are! So even though you may find yourself attracted to bad guys sometimes, save your heart for your very own Mr. Darcy."

i think this is soo true:)) and there's one person in my mind regarding this matter! Maybe i get wad someone ever said before, last guys finish last right?

Today i kept thinking about my past and I THOUGHT of MR. safa should know(:
I miss MR :( But only today I decide to close our chapters since each other has been so busy with our companions... My room is filled with MR's memories.. To the right, there's the bear, to my left, the letters and picts, right infront bears and kinder surprises from MR. All the little things that MR did will make me smile like crazy and my heart goes THUMP THUMP THUMP. ~~now i secretly wish i could turn back time cos i know if i hadnt u know, we could have been sth special~~
sighs MR'S just the most sweetest thing like for instance i rmbr when i walked away, MR didnt let me and stop me and pulled my hand, while looking up and giving me the most charming and omg smile ever. TEE HEE.

seriously, being attached sucks at times.

stuck on the song vanilla twilight

Artist: Owl City
Song: Vanilla Twilight

Lyrics:
The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

throughTHICKandTHIN
2:28 AM

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

breeks cafe during my bday :D after which we went to west coast to eat!

DEADBLOG.. BEEN MIA. dont think anyone's reading this anymore.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBBIE TAN!!

Alright, so my dad had a family day thing on 27jun, sat. :D
watch TRANSFORMERS 2 at THE GRAND CATHAY. zomg. Its super grand and cos it states as grand cathay while the ticket also states its hall 1, I was so dumb trying to find where the hell is it when its actually just at 1 level. Idiot much??
(: you prolly think so. ANYHOO, the movies AWESOMEE :DD

so 4th july, my aunt got married. Both weekends spend rewang-ing (helping out).
DAMN TIRED!!!!!
And catch Ice Age 3D at cineleisure. It was so pack at vivo we had to bus down to town... Only managed to get the 7pm show :( Plus, it was at the side seat somemore!

OHH, i went ngee ann last fri before chem paper to see sophia's stall AND prick my finger. HAHA helped my cousin with his fyp performance thingy. Anyhoo, it was to test abt hep B! AND THE RESULT ISSSSSSS........

"Negative but you haven been jab before,"

ZOMG. Alright, MIDYRS ARE OVER! i have holiday since last fri after chem and i will only start schl this fri :D BUT, i need to do my june GP hw :( HAVEN DONE.
siao la to read 30 essays plus do the ts etc...
i'm only done with half yest. oh wells.

I cant wait to meet up with pj kids tmr :D dinner-ing at esplanade.
AND next wed with RAN,XUELI,MARION, ERZA :DDD dinner with them!
I HAVEN SEEN THEM IN AGES :'(
its a lie if i say tht i dont miss them :((

today, i'mma do some chem and math fr tuition hw and finish up my GP! (have to do so)
sighs.
i seriously need to buck up, I'll show them I can make it. God, please help me. amin.

throughTHICKandTHIN
10:15 PM